Category Archives: college

Sit and Wonder

A British nurse in 2006.

Image via Wikipedia

I am sitting here, finishing up my studying for my Anatomy Lab midterm and I wonder how I will feel about my future job once I actually begin it. I have no idea if I am able to handle the stresses of being a nurse. I don’t know how I will cope. I believe that I can cope, I think that I can work through my problems and feelings. I view it all as a challenge, something for me to conquer, something that I want to do in order to be happy and have a good life. But what is a good life? I want to be a mother eventually too and I would love to be a stay at home mom but right now I don’t see that happening, ever, and that makes me kind of sad. I worry I won’t enjoy my job, but then, why does it matter? If I don’t like it, I could just get another degree or get some type of desk job in Health Care with the degree I’m going to get. If being a nurse doesn’t work out, I’ve realized that’s okay. It doesn’t make me a failure, it just makes me different. It just means that nursing is not the job for me, but there’s a million other types of jobs out there. If it doesn’t work out, I’m confident I will find something I love. I think, though, that I will love nursing, I know it will be difficult, but it’ll be just as rewarding as it is difficult.


Leave a comment

Filed under college, life

Burnt Out

I am really, really burnt out with school right now. This semester isn’t very hard, 3 online classes and they’re all pretty simple. It’s just, I don’t know. I don’t feel like trying anymore. I love my Anatomy class, but my other classes just seem so pointless and stupid. My English teacher is a bitch, and said that I had “communication barriers” because I put sky-rocketing, instead of skyrocketing. Talk about nitpicking, lady. One of my other problems is procrastination. I really just can’t get the will to do some of the stupid things I’m required to do. I can’t wait until I’m done with the BS filler classes and actually get to take some practical ones! I think I’m also just bored with life, in general. I never really do anything or get out, since I don’t have money or close friends. I’m hoping to get a Part Time job, which will hopefully fix both of those problem, but will definitely help the money situation. I hope after Spring break I feel a little more into school and hopefully have a better time focusing. Right now I’m procrastinating on writing a paper, but it’s not due till Friday so I’m not doing too terrible, yet. Wish me luck!

1 Comment

Filed under college