I am sitting here, finishing up my studying for my Anatomy Lab midterm and I wonder how I will feel about my future job once I actually begin it. I have no idea if I am able to handle the stresses of being a nurse. I don’t know how I will cope. I believe that I can cope, I think that I can work through my problems and feelings. I view it all as a challenge, something for me to conquer, something that I want to do in order to be happy and have a good life. But what is a good life? I want to be a mother eventually too and I would love to be a stay at home mom but right now I don’t see that happening, ever, and that makes me kind of sad. I worry I won’t enjoy my job, but then, why does it matter? If I don’t like it, I could just get another degree or get some type of desk job in Health Care with the degree I’m going to get. If being a nurse doesn’t work out, I’ve realized that’s okay. It doesn’t make me a failure, it just makes me different. It just means that nursing is not the job for me, but there’s a million other types of jobs out there. If it doesn’t work out, I’m confident I will find something I love. I think, though, that I will love nursing, I know it will be difficult, but it’ll be just as rewarding as it is difficult.